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[Private] [3.5.06 @ 5:48 pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I still can't believe I own a house. I shouldn't own a house. It's too... permanent.

It's oddly comfortable, though.

I'm glad this is private so no one in particular can read it.

[12.9.05 @ 8:08 pm]
Sometimes... I just need to close my big yap.

[11.9.05 @ 9:39 pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I always enjoy speaking with Shizune-san. And I found out that she's very well read! What an absolute JOY.

I'm not sick anymore... and certainly not after my excursion to the onsen. I got to research from up close this time around, which is... amazing. I have Naruto to thank for it, too.


[11.5.05 @ 4:36 pm]
[ mood | sick ]

I'm really... sick. I hate being sick. I can't get anything done except SNEEZE. I woke up like this, and considered that people were talking about me, like I'm sure they were doing last night, because I couldn't stop sneezing, even at one in the morning.

I saw Iruka last night... he was also sick, but he'd been to see Shizune-san, who said that he had the flu. I know I wouldn't have been able to get sick from Iruka... but... here I am, sneezing, coughing, and with a stuffy nose. Tea isn't helping at all... maybe I should go see Shizune-san, too. It would be a bit awkward for me, though... I'd like to go to Tsunade, and get HER to help me... but... bleugh. I don't want a speech.


[10.14.05 @ 8:55 am]
[ mood | drunk ]

I heard that Gaara was in town... I also heard that he and Sasuke completely wrecked one of the training grounds. Wonderful. I thought that the ANBU were supposed to stop Sasuke from doing such things. Interesting that those two should train together. Very very interesting. I should speak to Sasuke soon... I wonder if he has any information on Itachi. Maybe. But then again, people frequently have less information that I have, anyway. >)

Naruto came to visit the other day when I was drunk. He was talking about... how he wants to try for Sasuke now. I still think that is a bad bad idea. I believe I thought so more when I was inebriated... interesting. In any event, it's still a bad idea.

And a worse idea was to take Naruto home. I didn't want to see Iruka. -_-;;

Research progresses.


[10.3.05 @ 6:10 pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Nothing much going on here, not really. Back to drinking heavily, back to writing frenetically... it seems I found my muse again.

I ran into Aburame Shino at some place I was drinking the other night. He's... well, back. And he's the same as ever... I wonder what he feels about those certain past events. It's not like he's going to say anything, of course...

I didn't know that the Aburame Clan's bugs drank sake. That's... really odd.


[9.14.05 @ 12:01 pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Well, odd rumours seem to abound. But apparently... they are correct. Or at least... they seem to be. Ah, then I have no choice but to assume the other rumors are true as well...

Ah, well, I'm sure similar rumors will circulate about me, now, as well. I find rumors to be so interesting, though... to see how far off from the truth they are.


[8.30.05 @ 9:11 pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I've been hearing some odd rumors lately... but I think I'm going to try and dismiss them. >_>

My book is going well... ish. I've been going more research than writing, actually... and I think I need to ask Shikamaru if he wants to come help me out with some more research... he's really good at it, too. That boy has more talent than anyone knows, really...

I wish I could shake the feeling that something is going to happen...


[8.22.05 @ 10:20 pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I have nothing new to report. My newest novel is going well... and research is back in full swing.

The movie filming has been postponed, however. They found a small problem with the age of one of the actresses. Ahem.


[Private] [8.18.05 @ 12:26 pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I have introduced Shikamaru to my favorite hobby, aside from drinking. No, he already is well versed in getting thoroughly drunk.

He is a very keen research assistant. >)

[8.17.05 @ 12:58 pm]
[ mood | working ]

I'm making progress on my new novel. I think I need to talk to Kakashi-san about some things regarding it... as he is probably my biggest fan... and I think for the strategic plot device, I'll be asking Shikamaru. Of course.

I have heard Asuma-san is back in Konoha. I wonder what Shikamaru thinks about that. Well, now I have more than one reason to go looking for him.


[8.14.05 @ 2:30 pm]
[ mood | devious ]

The heartburn has finally gone away. >_<

I have a GREAT plot for my next book. GREAT. >)


[8.8.05 @ 12:58 am]
[ mood | lethargic ]

Nothing much going on around here... In lieu of writing my novel, I've been thinking of creating some new jutsu... but... I am lacking inspiration... maybe some will fall into my lap.


[8.1.05 @ 5:28 pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Shikamaru and Naruto both ended up drinking at my apartment the other night. Shikamaru is a quiet drinker, while Naruto waxed... spastic... after one drink. Naruto is no longer allowed to drink at my home.


[7.27.05 @ 2:24 am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Weird. Totally weird. But very very nice...

Shikamaru and I ended up talking more... and drinking... in his new apartment. We got completely smashed, and I passed out... on his floor, I believe. We have a scintillating conversation about a purple people... something or other, and jutsu, and the flooring. Quite entertaining. He is a very good drinking partner! I am glad that I have one ray of sunlight in my otherwise grey and dismal life. I owe him a lot just for spending time with me and letting me... well, babble... he's such a nice guy. I'm glad I could help him find a place of his own... I think it's relieved some of the stress he was under... and I hope that he can work out the rest. Poor guy doesn't need to deal with that crap at such a young age. -_-


[Private] [7.25.05 @ 7:27 pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

I am shocked. I am not shocked... maybe... disgusted is better. Iruka... despite proclaiming his love for me... he's already 'moving on.' How is that love? I realize now that he just... he was using me for something. I don't know what, but... this is sickening. I feel... like I'm going to vomit.

[Private] [7.20.05 @ 10:32 am]
[ mood | relieved ]

Iruka came around last night... and I did what needed to be done. For my mental health, for my sanity, and because I doubt that he really, in his heart of hearts, wants to be in a relationship. Because if he did, he wouldn't have been going around trying to fuck every guy who crossed his path. It's incredible the things he accused me of... but you know... the way things were going, and I'm glad I was able to think things out for myself in the time we spent apart... that he would never be happy in the relationship, no matter what I did, or said. Actually, the arguement sounded like a sick parody of a playground confrontation. You know, one person accuses the other of something, and the other says, "No, you're..." and repeats it back to them.

I think that Iruka will never really mature... he's too stuck in his own past, not wanting to let things go. He prefers to stay in the comfort of early teenage years, not wanting to listen to authority. You'd think that he would even view me, one of the Legendary Three, as someone who might have a bit more life experience... but no, apparently I am just another person. Well, this way he can have his marriage and his kids, the things he kept telling me that he would never have, and... I don't know what kind of guilt trips he has laid on me... I know I'm sick of it.

The main thing I realized from the discussion last night is that Iruka is probably the most immature person in Konoha. I think that Naruto displays more sensibilities, honestly. He is going to one day realize that he can't be a child forever, but who knows when that will be. You'd think he would have learned more life lessons by now... but apparently not.

I need to go for a walk to clear my head. A nice, long walk. Maybe to an onsen. >)

[Private] [7.18.05 @ 12:12 am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I've been laying low for... well, a while. And I'm good at hiding. Very good. I've never been caught peeping yet, right? ^_~

Anyway, I... I know I need to speak with Iruka. I have come to a conclusion. -_-;;;

[Private] [7.6.05 @ 10:57 pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Well, I'm home.

I think... I think I'm going to lay low for a bit, in any case... I have to meet with a few people, the first of which is Tsunade. I have some information on certain groups she may be interested in. I also have to talk to Iruka, if he'll still talk to me. I've made some decisions that I think will be in everyone's best interest. He'll be fine with it, I'm sure. It's not as if he has been doing anything other than... well, I suppose I encouraged it, right? This is rediculous.

In any event, I'm going to hide out and just vegetate for a few days. It'll be better that way. People have already come knocking on my door. I wish I'd stayed away longer. It doesn't matter, right? Nothing does right now.

[6.27.05 @ 2:39 am]
[ mood | refreshed ]

My back finally recovered, and so I decided to exercise a bit... and I found myself just taking a walk, walking along the river. I ran into Neji-san, and we spoke... quite a bit. We spoke about Naruto and Gaara, and Neji's outlook on things is pretty much my own. I am glad to find another person with that opinion, because I was being led to feel that my reactions were faulty... or something. We also talked a lot about my relationship with Iruka... and at some point I realized that I need to get some time to myself, in a real sense, traveling once more... and it will strengthen the relationship. Well, it should. It depends what Iruka thinks. But I left a note for him on the door, and now... I'll be off. I think I'll be gone for a little over a week. It'll be nice to be on the road again.


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